Clearest Confusion

I do not know
I do not know who I was
I do not know who I am
I do not know who I will become

Good, bad, right, wrong?
Yes to all, but decisively no

A sometimes noble mind
A sometimes noble heart
A sometimes noble spirit
A sometimes noble start

It always ends differently
Never quite how I imagined
Never quite how I wanted
It always ends differently

A sometimes wicked mind
A sometimes wicked heart
A sometimes wicked spirit
A sometimes wicked start

Good, bad, right, wrong?
Yes to all, but decisively no

Innocent ideas turning cold
Pleasant thoughts becoming soiled
Honest intentions interpreted queerly
Genuine ideals or fool’s gold?

Difficult to understand
Sentiments changing by the hour
A once infallible mindset
But the milk now turning sour

I still do not know
I still do not know who I was
I still do not know who I am
I still do not know what I will become

Apologize? No. But repentant I am
Not for indiscretions but for the aftermath
I am who I am and I do what I do
And I love it.

Good, bad, right, wrong?
Yes to all, but assuredly no